Eek! Yesterday I fell off the fun wagon. I can’t even blame my fall on work. I had read about a lecture I wanted to go to — given by one of the Bielski brothers. If you missed the movie made about their efforts to save Jews during WWII — check out Defiance. It’s a really gripping story, sadly true — but truly inspirational about the power of defiance.
Anyway, I’d planned to go but needed a push to get out the door. I invited a couple of people but neither wanted to go. I could feel my energy waning with each no. I still thought about going — I’m used to doing things on my own, but when I realized the cost was $18, I immediately jumped on that cost as an excuse to not go.
I say excuse because, really, that’s what it was. I had the money — even though I’m trying to be cost-conscious, I could have sprung for the lecture if I’d wanted to. But I convinced myself that I shouldn’t spend $18 and so let myself off the hook for keeping to my new year resolution of having fun.
Now, I’m not saying a lecture about the subject matter of the Holocaust was “fun” per se. But the idea of getting out an hearing a lecture that wasn’t work-related would definitely have felt like fun and the whole idea of my New Year resolution was for me to quit my last-several-years lifestyle/reputation of being a stick-in-the-mud who always works and won’t spend any money on fun. Yuck. That behavior is so 2009.
So, I fell off the wagon on Thursday, January 7 — time to get back in the saddle again (okay, I’m mixing my metaphors but at least they all have to do with horses …).